Wednesday, June 27, 2012


Oh how I wish I could dwell in the comfort of stability right now in my personal life.  However Jesus Christ is the same yesterday today and forever.  Hebrews 13:8

I used to think that the best way for my husband and I to show our children stabilty was for them to witness the love and affectionate devotion we had for each other.  We always kissed and hugged in front of our kids.  With so many broken marriages these days I wanted them to be secure in the fact that their little family was safe now, tomorrow and forever.  I wanted them to go to sleep every night without worries, knowing tomorrow our family was still safe and sound and they were loved and protected.

I never expected this marriage to end.  However, I am continuing to show my kids that they are in a stable and secure family and they are loved and protected.  I want them to trust that even though some things change, their mother will always be there for them.  I want them to feel confident as they venture out into the world, believing that our famiy is still here and always will be.  I want them to trust in God to find a perfect spouse for them, even though a happy future cannot be guaranteed. 

In a moment's notice my children will be gone to live their lives alone or with spouses.  I pray they will continue the tradition of making their children feel stable and secure, loved and protected.  I want my grandchildren to count of their parents in every situation and have the confidence to one day find their own spouses, without guarantee of a happy future.

What I want most is for my children and their legacy to love, trust and call upon Jesus at every moment; during times of triumph as well as at times of turmoil.  I want them to know that when life throws them a curveball, they just have to adjust a little to make sure they catch it.  Life is hard but it's a blast.  Life without Jesus is not an option.  I could not have gotten through the past 6 months without my love for Christ and my reliance on Him to make sure the path God wants me on is the one I'm walking.  I don't know where my path will lead me, or where the path may lead my children, but I am confident, after watching how strong my children have been that they will continue to love and obey Christ.  It's all a mother can ask for.


These men showed faith in very interesting times and ways.

Abel had a strong faith and honored God.  He gave forth his bet flock.  Hebrews 11:4 and Genesis 4:1-8

Enoch had faith and pleased God.  He walked with God.  Hebrews 11:5-6 and Genesis 5:21-24

Noah had faith and obeyed God.  He did everything God commanded.  Hebrews 11:7 and Genesis 6:5-22

Abraham had faith and trusted and obeyed God.  He followed God to a new land.  Hebrews 11:8-19 and Genesis 12:1-5

Isaac had faith and blessed his son.  He was almost sacrificed by Abraham.  Hebrews 11:20 and Genesis 22:1-14

Jacob had faith and blessed Joseph's sons.  He wrestled with God and wonn.  Hebrews 11:21 and Genesis 32:22-32

Joseph had faith and gave instructions to Israelites.  He was sold into slavery.  He forgave his brothers.  Hebrews 11:22 and Genesis 37:23-28; 50:15-21

Moses had faith and refused to be called King.  Hebrews 11:24-28 and Exodus 4:1-12

Joshua had faith and marched around the walls of Jericho.  Hebrews 11:30 and Joshua 3:1-8, 10, 14


Day to day responsibilities
                            unsettling effect
     burdened on the inside.


Come with me
       draw beside Him

Monday, June 4, 2012


I am 48 years old.  What have I accomplished in my life?  Don't get me wrong.  I don't consider myself a failure.  I had a good marriage of 24 years which is ending in divorce.  I have raised 3 fabulous kids and taken in a few extra kids.  I taught special ed kids for a while and have lead youth groups, been a girl scout leader, meal taker to those in need, invited countless people into my home for food and a safe place to hang out, written dozens of Christian devotions and helped as many people as I can.

However, when I think about what Jesus accomplished in 33 years, I feel so inadequate.  Jesus lived with us in this valley called life.  He completed his work on a barren hillside surrounded by two criminals.  Even then love spilled from him and he forgave the criminal who asked for help.  Even then the wind blew a beautiful whistle, the leaves from the trees fell to the ground in a choreographed manner, the birds sang a lovely song and the heavens broke forth in song at the receiving of it's own son back.  I have been fortunate enough to find solitude in the mountains while listening to the song God sings on a daily basis.  Even the rippling of a stream or the buzz of a bee is a song sung by God.  Have you ever been in an awesome rain or snow storm?  Have you taken the time to listen to the storm?  Listen carefully next time and you'll hear the majesty of God's music.

There are times when I don't listen to the music because I'm too distracted by the noise of my life, especially during dark uncertain situations.  If I remember to take just a moment to focus on God I begin to year the soft hum.  When I take the time to read the bible and study notes I begin to discern the melody.  When I speak and pray to God directly, in a personal relationship, I begin to distinguish the chorus and when I surrender to Christ completely I hear the glorious band in all it's magnificence, every note distinct and clear.  I want to spend my life dancing with Jesus so I might better know the steps through practice.  I don't just want to survive the dance, but I want to thrive because of the dance.

My goal this week is to get back on track and devote a substantial amount of my time reading the bible and my study notes.  I find that when I concentrate on the music I begin to learn to dance in the valley of my life.  The muddiness of my every day life is not a strong enough excuse to stay away from God's word.  God knows every dance, not just the good and prosperous ones.  He knows the dark and ugly steps of my daily life.

What have I done with my life?  I am taking every opportunity to be surrounded by the splendor of Jesus so that I can be ready to do his work when I am called upon.  You see, it's not what I do with my life, but what Jesus asks me to do with my life that matters.  I miss helping people.  It's time I get out of this funk and start focusing on those in more need than I am.